Question: I’m a 28 year old medical student experiencing an existential crisis of sorts. After working as a chemist for about five years, I found myself very unhappy with my occupation. I decided to pursue my lifelong dream of becoming a physician. I applied to medical school with the feeling that if it was meant to be, I would be accepted. I was accepted into school but I’m struggling. I thought that this was meant to be and that if I worked very hard, I would be fine. I expected school to be very difficult, but it is so much more so than I thought. Now for some back story.
When I was 13, I was told by a medium that I had an important purpose on Earth as a healer and would one day make a very important scientific discovery. At that young age, I was surprised and flattered, but didn’t take any stock in the information. As years went by, I would ponder the notion from time to time and think, I’m not that smart; that would never happen. I was told similar information again around the age of 18 and again last week.
My question is, if this is where I’m supposed to be, why is it so hard? I ask for help from my guides and everyone I can call upon for help, I study day and night, and still find this to be so difficult. I’ve never had trouble doing anything in my life; everything has always come easily to me. But the one thing that I’ve ever really wanted, to become a physician and healer and to help as many people as possible, seems so very hard.
Am I in the right place? Am I on the right track? I feel like I’m losing myself, losing ground. Please help shed some light on my situation. I really need some guidance right now.
Note from Cheryl: This will be answered in more than one part.
Higgins: Today, Friend, right now, notice how your energy flows. Personal energy flows in a general pattern from head to toe. Part of your extreme discomfort is the rigors of study and the mental difficulty of the courses have caused you to tense up energetically and your flow of energy is blocked in your head.
To solve this, many times a day direct your energy to flow from head to foot. This may be done with silent verbal direction or with a sweeping motion of the hand from head to toe. Also, when you feel most tense say to yourself, “Energy stay with me.” Wait a few moments until you feel a little more full then follow that saying, “Energy flow harmoniously through me so that I may express my Truest self.