Yesterday, on my way to Seattle, I was merging on the freeway (the Boeing freeway that connects with I-5) and a young guy in a big black SUV zooms up on the outside and cuts in front of me. I was really irritated for a moment. Then a funny thing happened. I had a brief flash where I was in his car at the point when he cut in front of me. He couldn’t get over because the car behind was too close so he had to zoom ahead to get safely on the freeway. I realize he is just an average joe trying to get along just like the rest of us.
Now here’s the dilemma, did I imagine that or did it happen?
This entry is highly edited to get down to the nuts and bolts…
January 19, 2005 at 0140
I asked God to “come live in me, to live in every cell”….and help me in every action.
The weather has warmed up overnight but I have my winter bed layers on. I woke up hot and my first thought was, “Well, what’s God’s response?” and all these streamers and confetti poured into my mind. I couldn’t read the few words–the impression was ‘Halleluja’ and ‘Hurray’–but the streamers and confetti were clear.
This is from January 18, 2005. It must have impressed me for some reason because I wrote it down twice, in two different locations:
This morning I woke up and immediately words floated into my mind. again, they weren’t very clear but DEMMONS (sic) and GNINNUR (scrolling right to left)
(Note: RUNNING would have been visible to someone facing me, if that were possible).
Very unclear again but this morning DEMMONS (forward and sic) and GNINNUR (Right to left and backwards) came to me.
From my journal entry dated January 16, 2005:
A funny vision this morning. Words floated by at angles and so on but they were backwards. The two words I caught were TCEPSUS then EMIRP. (I can’t duplicate with this keyboard…eg. the letters were in the order shown but faced the other way.) They were not clear and the letters were backwards to me even thought the letters were in the right order. The words scrolled right to left so if someone else were looking inside my head the words would have been the right way for them.
Written Thursday, January 13, 2005
I had a vision, it may have been Tuesday morning, that I couldn’t read clearly. But the two words I could decipher were awake and beware, or aware.
I was checking the batch today at work. It was about 3 PM. I picked up the last vancomycin 1 gram and it seemed funny. After looking at it for awhile I peeled the label off. (The label underneath read) phenylephrine 10 mg.
Note: ‘the batch’ is what we call the intravenous compounds we make for patients in the hospital. It would consist of things such as a powdered antibiotic reconstituted and added to intravenous fluid. As the pharmacist, I am responsible for giving a final check and authorizing it to be dispensed to a patient. Phenylephrine is used to support blood pressure. Vancomycin is an antibiotic.
January 3, 2005
I had another, very brief, vision today. It was sometime during the day. I sat down on my bed for a moment. The word was “five”. I almost totally ignored it.
January 4, 2005
Dad called today. He called from the VA emergency department where he is being admitted for a pulmonary embolism. (My brother) and I are going to meet tomorrow and go see him.
January 5, 2005
Visited Dad at the VA. He was in the medical intensive care unit (MICU). It was room 5. Right outside the nursing station. Not good. When I got there, someone came in to do a test for deep vein thrombosis but the test was not conclusive. He has had a bilateral PE and will probably go home on oxygen in about three days.
(Please imagine this scenario: I walk onto the unit and am looking for my dad and as my eyes roam the unit looking for direction, I see my dad looking from his bed out the door at me. I look back at him and his face is framed by the door with the number “5” on the frame. It shook me really and truly.)
This is another current journal entry relative to Higgins’ (hopefully) imminent overt return:
March 31, 2021
I awakend (that is to say Tucker, my dog, repeatedly threw his body at the bed and panted really hard long enough to awaken me) at about 11:30 PM. I still wasn’t back to sleep by 12:30 so I got up and did 1/2 hour of stretching to a DVD, then meditated until I was sleepy. It was very effective for putting me back to sleep.
During the meditation a very nice, friendly, cozy energy sat down in me. It felt a lot like when I was a working student for Melle van Brugen and got a horse warmed up for him before he got on. This pressure settled in first, then The Angel came. Only I soon realized it wasn’t The Angel. I asked who it was because she felt so much the same.
I was only able to determine that ‘she’ is going to help me with radioactivity. I specifically asked about radioactive nuclear waste, but clearly that is incomplete. It is radioactivity in general.
An aside about the stretching DVD: If you haven’t been introduced to Miranda Esmonde-White’s Essentrics it is definitely a thing to know about. It is a stretching program that I have found to be extremely helpful and strangely pleasant. I purchased the 4 disc set that includes Posture, Pain Free, Mobility and Bone Strengthening. I just can’t say enough nice things about this gentle stretching program. Higgins has said many times to come to meditations ‘gently exercised’ and each of these 30 minute stretching routines produces that gently exercised feeling that they have talked about so many times.
This is a tiny portion of my entry from December 31, 2004. The entire entry is long and pretty weird but not weird in an interesting way.
“According to the horoscope I read in the Aquarius for 2005 book I saw in downtown Seattle I am going to experience a life transformation in 2005.
“I have just smudged my house in preparation for this. I am excited to greet whatever it is. I hope it’s good.”