History of Higgins

I’m a little surprised to discover that people are actually interested in how Higgins came to be with me. Since our daily meditations are routine and unexciting I thought I would share something of our history. I have kept journals for years and have located them, all except the one in which they actually arrived….how could I mislay that one? Nevertheless, I’m reading up on my last twenty years to find the right place to start.

They came in 2005. March probably. Back then I worked evening shift and arrived home about 11:45 or midnight. My habit was to meditate for a bit before going to bed and once they arrived those meditations became surreal. But looking back, there was a prelude, a period of time before their arrival when many strange things happened. I will start there.

I invite you to join me in remembering the early days of Higgins.


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Meditation January 26, 2021

Higgins visited me yesterday morning and asked once again for me to begin meditation for fifteen minutes every day. Actually, they asked a few things:

  1. meditate 15 minutes every day
  2. write 15 minutes every day
  3. continue my current exercise regimen
  4. continue my current diet (of no food additives)
  5. and to do something every day towards making my life and surroundings exactly as I would have them be

This morning I did my fifteen minutes of meditation and they moved my head around a bit. I’ve no idea whether it is important but they did a left right movement first tilting my right ear towards my right shoulder and then left ear towards left shoulder. This moving of my head becomes monotonous and at one point they paused and it was clearly a message to me to wait for them to move me rather than anticipating that they will move me and moving first.

If you have ever practiced ballroom dance, the gentleman leads and the lady follows. Sometimes, a lady can follow too closely and the lady will move, anticipating what is coming next, before the gentleman’s movement invites her to do so. Apparently, I was following too closely.

They did that for fully fifteen minutes and at the end they didn’t leave. I opened my eyes and waited for them to do something but all they did was stare intently at a spot on the world map on the wall about twenty feet away. When I finally realized that was the message, I noted the location. Once I had noted the location to their satisfaction they moved my eyes to another location and finally to a third. When I had all three firmly fixed in my mind they left.

I walked across the room to the map and noted the locations. The first was between Argentina and Chile, but not on the coast. The closest city is Salta. There is a large area south and west of Salta with no cities indicated on the map. That seemed to be the area they were focused on.

The second area was in the Caribbean around the islands of Grenada and Barbados. Definitely not as far north as Cuba nor as far south as the South American continent.

The third area they focused on was covered by a paper that I had pinned up. Even after lifting the paper and looking closely, the best I could determine was Pakistan, Afghanistan, Iraq. I don’t think it was as far south as Saudi Arabia, Dubai or Oman.

I have no idea why they focused my eyes so intently on these three areas. When I find out more I will let you know.


January 26, 2021

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Higgins’ Arrival Update

Someone asked recently if I am okay since I’ve been silent lately as regards posting on Ask Higgins. Yes, I’m okay. This past year was very slow workwise, second to the corona virus shutdown, so in the fall, when more work was offered, I accepted all the hours I could. With the arrival of the Covid vaccine, I have also been working with the vaccine administration process in my workplace/community. While I am extremely appreciative of the work, it often leaves little time, energy or enthusiasm for meditating and writing.

It is also of note that when my schedule is as full as it is, it is frequently difficult to access them. Something did occur that may be of interest although I am loathe to share it since I have never truly believed that it will come to pass.

One day I was trying to connect with then to determine whether there is anything specific I could do to speed up their arrival. (They indicated they are already here.) Then I asked whether I could do anything helpful. (They indicated that they are well pleased with my current exercise routine, as well as with my current diet which is simply the omission of additives of any kind from my food. Higgins would like me to continue this course of action permanently.) Next, I asked whether we (Higgins and I) are ready for whatever it is that we will do next. (Yes.) What, then, is the holdup, I wondered? (The response: They are ready. I am ready. We await some moment of need in the social, and also ecological, realm and I cannot decipher what that special moment is.)

I further asked whether they are already using me for whatever it is while I sleep. (Yes.) Note that when they left in July of 2018–it was 2018, wasn’t it?– they stated that the next segment would be the knowledge phase and that they would work through me while I was not conscious. I finally realize that being asleep is not conscious and was quite disappointed that this might be all there is. Pretty anticlimactic if I will never be aware of what they are doing. That prompted me to ask whether I will know of the work they do. If I understood correctly, 90% of what they do with me will be while I’m asleep.

Of course, I was disappointed to know that. I want to enjoy whatever it is they are here to do so I pressed on. What happens during the remaining 10% of our time together?(They indicated that time is when I will be awake but they will assume use of my body to do whatever overt work they are going to do.) This use of my body is the very thing I have understood them to say they would do since the very beginning. I hope they will, if only to build my trust in them. They went on to say whatever discomfort we are having in the world right now, it will get worse and there will be times when they are drawn forth to assist us. It also did seem as if that time is very close.

From time to time I have moments of dizziness and I wonder whether they are practicing. For example, if they take over and there is a moment of passing my body’s functions from me to them, isn’t it possible I would collapse and be hurt in the process? I like to think they have this well in hand. Sometimes I hope we will pass through our difficulties with ease and instead draw them out for something fun and inspiring. Either way, whatever it is I believe it will be coming soon.


January 18, 2021

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Meditation, December 7, 2020

Last week, I think it was Wednesday night, my dog woke me up. He has this habit of smooshing his body up against the bed and rubbing alongside the mattress , then poking his nose in my face when he needs to wake me up so he can go out. When I awakened I was tingling head to toe. This has happened many times over the last few years but this was especially intense. It lasted quite awhile and during the moments I was appreciating this exquisite yumminess of their energy coursing through me, the dog went out to the living room and back to smoosh up against the bed at least three times.

You can imagine I was beginning to worry that he might not be able to wait any longer so I decided to get up, even though the energy was still coursing through my body very strongly. Funny thing…I couldn’t get up. It was several more minutes before they let me up and that was the end of it for that night.

I bother to share about it at all because something different from their usual happened last night. I sat down to meditate before bed but couldn’t calm my mind enough to reach them so I finally went on to bed. I was deliciously drowsy by this point and just as it seemed I was drifting off to sleep they came in that same wonderful, tingly way. The energy wasn’t quite as intense as that interesting event last Wednesday but what was interesting is that they have never come in while I was awake except for the first time back in 2005. Always when I feel this coursing energy it happens when I ‘catch’ them at it because I awakened unexpectedly.

I do wonder what they are up to.

Cheryl, December 7, 2020

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Meditation, November 30, 2020

It was too cold to spend much time in the garden this afternoon. After an hour I was ready to go back inside. The house was quiet so I sat to meditate and it was generally so boring as to not be worth writing about. Except for one thing. A quite large and gentle being settled into me. At first, I thought it was the ‘essence of doe’ that I have bumped into before. She quickly clarified that she was not. Still, she had that doe-like feminine, soft presence.

She began to move my head in an infinity pattern. After many of these rather large movements that are like a figure eight lying on its side, my nose began to lift with each successive cycle. Each time my nose lifted the infinity pattern became smaller until, when my nose was quite high, the movement became very small. Then she stopped moving my head and all was still for a moment. Then she ‘said’ to me, “You’re ready.” The she ‘said’ to someone else (non-physical), “She’s ready.”

Then she left.

What do you suppose I’m ready for?

Cheryl Jensen, November 30, 2020

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Meditation, November 29, 2020

This past week it has been hard to get my meditations in, even fifteen tiny minutes. Sometimes I did it in five minute segments. All they have done during these short meditations is acknowledge that I’m there and move my head around a bit. This morning I had more time, about forty-five minutes and they took advantage of the extra time to communicate with me.

I’ve been concerned that I’m not getting enough time in for them to do what they need to do and their response was rather interesting. It seems they don’t actually care whether I meditate or not. The transition into our next phase, the Knowledge Phase, will be easier and smoother for both of us if I do the meditations. But the fact is, they will be bringing it (whatever it is) whether I find any time to meditate with them or not. This is particularly interesting and brings up something I had forgotten.

Way long ago, they came to me in 2005 so it was a little before they arrived, I was sitting in a meeting at church. I no longer remember what the meeting was about, probably I was the chair of the education committee and it was probably a meeting of all the committee chairs. We were having a discussion and at some point I said, “I’m just afraid that people will think I’m a…”

I no longer remember what the next word was going to be. All I remember is that something spoke for me. It was so weird knowing, absolutely knowing, that something else had taken over and said, “witch,” in place of whatever word I had planned to say. It was so preposterous in the context that the entire room of people, probably seven or eight people, all turned to stare at me.

Remembering this, I know that they can step in whenever they choose. It is a relief on some level not to worry about whether or not I am holding up my end of the bargain.

The other interesting thing that happened this morning is that during the meditation they began to move my hands and arms. As is typical, they started with my right arm. They lifted up my right hand and then made a sort of infinity movement…like a figure eight that is lying on its side. Then they did the same with the left, several times each side. Then they lifted both arms simultaneously, stretching my arms out in what is a little like the arm position of second position in ballet. They even went so far as to correct my left wrist which was cocked back a little. Once they were satisfied with this they put my arms down and lifted only the right arm. They began to flick my fingers at my body like flicking water. They flicked rather aggressively and soon I noticed that with each flick of my fingers I could feel a corresponding surge of energy through whatever part of my body they were focusing on. They moved from head to toe several times focusing most of their attention on my eyes and hips. They must have achieved their goal, whatever it was, because after many minutes of this they stopped and ended the meditation.

Cheryl Jensen, November 29, 2020

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Question On Ego v. Soul and On Fear of Surrender

Work has been busy and exhausting lately and the meditations are suffering for it. Higgins knew this would happen, I’m sure, and that is why they only asked for fifteen minutes a day for the first month of their return.

Each time I sit the routine is pretty much the same. They move my head in various ways which seem designed to loosen the intense grip my mind holds on my body. When they left in July, 2018 (was that the date? I think so) they said they would return and when they did they would work with me/through me while I was not conscious. I took that to mean that they would take over my mind and speak while I was not consciously aware of it.

The reason they would do that is when they speak through me while I am conscious there is some possibility that the material they are sharing will not come through with 100% accuracy. In fact, at best they have said I am 95% accurate and at worst only 60%.

If they can, in essence, use my body while the soul/ego part is out of the way, then they can share information that my own mind has no knowledge of. Therefore they have no speech tools to use as they speak through me. I suppose it would be like eliminating the middle man.

It is quite difficult for me to let go in this way. They have stated many times that I developed this intense hold purposefully. Their energy is so much higher than mine that this is a sort of defense technique so that I won’t just float out of my body and not be able to function in the Earth realm. You’ve heard the term ‘airhead’? That would be me without this powerful will to stay in my body.

Someone sent a comment asking a question I think to be apropos:


Just my perspective of ego/soul . I view ego as the human or earthly part of myself. The Head or thinking per say. The soul is the divine the heavenly part, the feeling or Heart the essence of myself.

Can you tell if or do you feel a bit scared to release or surrender either the ego or soul , because of the beings who are coming through at the time?

Cheryl’s response:

I’m unclear whether ego and little soul are the same thing. Certainly, there is a larger part of us which I call the Soul with a capital S. For the purposes of sharing right now, I will use ego and soul with a little s to be synonymous and to mean the the head and thinking part.

That you choose to use ‘head’ to describe it is quite intuitive on your part. That is exactly what it feels like when they shake my head. It feels like there is a ball the size of my fist inside my head. There is also what feels like a metal rod that runs from the ball down my spine. When they shake my head that ball rattles around the tiniest bit but enthusiastically holds its place. Conversely, the metal rod is quite happy to flap around. When I think about the rod it almost dissolves and then reforms when things settle down.

I’m certain that you have identified the issue. I do not overtly feel fear with these beings. I do, though, worry about getting out of my body successfully. What will be there? Where will I be? What if I just fly away and never come back? Will something fearful be there? Something horrifying that my mind cannot imagine?

I have asked Higgins for some things. Whatever we do it must not scare me, nor harm me physically, mentally, spiritually or emotionally. Although I believe on some level that they can do this, I don’t know that I am up to it. I want to be. And I can’t believe that I would set up a life plan for myself that would terrify me. What would be the point of that?

H. O. I do appreciate you asking this important question and supporting me in your quiet, steady way.


November 22, 2020

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Meditation, November 19, 2020

I awakened at three in the morning from a dream that ended very successfully for me. I love those kinds of dreams. Since I couldn’t get back to sleep I decided to meditate. They started off with some gentle head movements but soon began shaking my head back and forth. My nose probably only moved a couple of inches to either side of center, so perhaps 4 inches from left to right. At first it was fairly slow and gentle but they began to shake my head very fast from right to left. So fast, in fact, that my skin felt as though it flapped and certainly, my eyeballs seemed to be coming loose.

Fortunately, they couldn’t do that for over long because my muscles became fatigued and the motion slowed down and became choppy of its own accord. Immediately after this shaking of my head, they started in with those belly dancing head slides. My muscles for this are not well developed so the motions were short and slow.

They repeated this sequence multiple times. On the final attempt, they shook my head as my head was leaning off to the left. Then, when they started the head slides I could feel what they were trying to do. It felt as if there is a center where my ego is focused. Maybe that is my soul. Anyway, that ego/soul that does not want to come out of my body slipped, just a little, by staying put when my head slid to the right.

They seemed, if not pleased, at least in recognition that some small progress had been made. At this point they left and I went back to sleep.

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Meditation, November 16, 2020

I awakened about 5:30 this morning and sat to meditate without setting an alarm so they could have as much time as they needed. Even though someone came in right away, it was very dull and uninteresting and my mind drifted often. As happened yesterday, they move my head in tiny circles or in a head slide each time my thoughts drifted. When they move my head in this way it seems to be designed to feel soothing and comforting. Whatever the reason, when they do this my thoughts stop.

It took nearly an hour before my mind finally became quiet long enough that I noticed pulsation of light starting on the right side of my right eye. The light passed from right to left, passing over the bridge of my nose and out of my field of vision on the left side of my left eye. These pulses were regularly timed and I wondered whether they are coordinated to the beat of my heart. Even though I was able to make this consideration I was not able to move my hands to test my pulse.

When the pulsations of light passed, the field opened. It was black with pinpoints of light like the night sky. The edges of my field of vision were muddy and fuzzy and wobbly, not definite like they were on Saturday. When this passed they let me up. When I checked the clock it was not yet seven so I set a timer for twenty more minutes and sat down again. We were able to achieve the same field again only much more quickly. Once we achieved this we stopped.

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Meditation, November 15, 2020

As is becoming my habit, I sat for a bit last night before bed as well as again this morning. Last night was unremarkable other than that they spent most of the fifteen minutes making small circles with my head which caused a pressure to develop in a specific spot in my brain. When I look up parts of the brain this morning, the area is the frontal lobe, the portion of the brain that controls speaking, thinking, memory and movement. Notably, it was a very specific spot within the frontal lobe, on top of my head and not far enough back on my head to be any section of the brain than the frontal lobe.

This morning, I did not set a timer and allowed myself to sit with them as long as they wanted. At first they sat with me in a way that is so boring to me when they do this that my mind tends to wander and I wonder whether they are even there. However, they were there because each time my mind wandered off they moved my head. They either made small circles with my head or moved my head side to side, like a belly dancing head slide. Each time they moved my head it brought my attention back from wherever I had drifted to.

After many such interventions I was able to keep my mind blank and once I was able to keep my mind clear, something sat down in me. I was sitting in my chair and whatever it is sat right down inside my body. It felt sort of heavy in a way I am unable to describe. If ‘we’ did anything together other than sit I cannot recall it. Eventually, I got chilled and decided to get up and turn on a little space heater I keep nearby. But I couldn’t get up. I was paralyzed in that way they did the first time they came to me years ago. It felt nice and not at all scary but I could not move. Soon though, my husband got up and began moving about the house and then he/it/they let me up.

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